September 26th, 2012

Happy Birthday to my beautiful son.  He is the best thing I have ever done, although I take no credit for his amazing capacities and talents.  He is his own person; I just ate well while he was growing inside me, and then made sure I fed him good food, gave him as many opportunities as I could afford, or could imagine, and taught him to appreciate reading, which he now loves.  His cognitive intelligence exceeded mine when he was about twelve, but my emotional intelligence stills beats his – hah!

He is bound to fare better in his life than I did in mine, and that is the best a parent can ask for.  I love you, my dear boy/man.

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Post Show Day

My desktop computer died yesterday and I have a bunch of important files on the hard drive.  I had been migrating files over to a separate hard drive, but hadn’t gotten all of them, and not the most recent ones.  The desktop PC was my work computer while the laptop computer I’m typing from was my travel computer.  Now I’m super paranoid that this one is going to fail me too.

I had my internet speed reduced, thereby reducing my monthly bill by half, but webpage access is much slower, and download times are close to dial-up.  I think I’ll have to go to a library, or some other public venue when I want to download something so it won’t take half a day, and I can work on other stuff at the same time.

My band had our first job at a local nightclub, and it was so fun.  I wish I had given a perfect performance, but I’m so good at screwing up I decided to make it a regular feature in my work, besides, our band name is Trainwreck, so you could say I was obliging our name. 😉  I could pretend I’m like those people who mess things up on purpose because they feel that only ‘god’ should do things perfectly (twisted logic, but I suppose it works for them).

Here’s a link to a short video clip one of my friends took of me singing some of Wild Horses:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L6CsU6yJEdQ

Two of my friends were dancing silly and they cracked me up while I was singing, which you’ll hear, but I have to get used to not reacting to that kind of stuff!  The song was recorded at the end of the night and I think you can hear that in my voice as well, but some of you have asked me to post clips when I had them, so there you go!  There might be more coming because another friend was shooting some video of the gig last night too.

Now that the pressure’s off, I’m hoping I’ll sleep better tonight.  Cheers!

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Weekly Photo Challenge: Every Day Life

I asked my son to take this picture of the rising moon, but I loved the street scene he captured more than the distant moon, even though it was a blue moon.

My son created this drawing when he was around nine or ten years old.  The only very inaccurate depiction is the stove.  Maybe that’s what he wished our stove looked like?  I thought this was a good entry for ‘Every day life’, even though it’s a photograph of a drawing. 🙂

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More Interesting Times

I’ve been talking with several women friends over the last few weeks who I’ve found in nearly the same position as I am.  Financials are terrible, prospects dim – and none of us are blaming President Obama.  We’re smart enough to understand that the republicans in Congress had a mandate to make President Obama a one-term President, and I hope they’re wrong.  Mitt Romney would be a ghastly choice as President.  The republicans in Congress have consistently blocked legislation, have not worked on jobs, as they said they would, and this hell we’re currently in started a long time ago.  Who was the last President to balance the budget?  Bill Clinton.  The wars we’ve been in, and are still in, the tax cuts for the rich, regulation repeal, and Citizen’s United vs. The Federal Election Commission, along with an already dire need for campaign finance reform before that disastrous Citizen’s United decision sided with corporations and made political spending – made money – a form of ‘free speech’, have all contributed to the place we’re now in.

Republican leaders know that there is no way America would elect Mitt Romney, so they’ve changed voter laws in many states where republicans are in power.  Of course, the changed voter rules make it disproportionately harder for minorities and those with low-incomes to vote.  Voter suppression is far more dangerous to our democracy than voter fraud, of which there is little, even though it does happen.  It also happens with all parties and not with one political faction.

Democracy requires vigilance, but when you have campaign money flowing like never before from large companies who no longer have to disclose their donors, and from individuals like the Koch brothers who can lose a million dollars and not notice, the requirements of maintaining a healthy democracy are seriously impinged – which, of course, is the new republican strategy.  Those hate-filled extremists seek to re-institute ‘unfettered capitalism’, with an added dose of theocracy.  Because we all miss the days when there were no labor laws keeping our children out of factories and coal mines, etc., and back when companies could dump raw sewage and toxic chemicals wherever they wanted because no one was stopping them.  Ah, yes, those were the days…  Combining a free-for-all market with theocracy will be a powerful cocktail to help keep the lowly from rising up, at least until another revolution happens.  It’s a short step to say that GOD wants you where you are in life or you would have been born rich, or able to otherwise succeed.  And why wouldn’t those with power and money want that?  They’ll never have to pay the piper, and nor will their successive generations with their trust funds and iron grip on the nation.  It’s only the middle class and the poor who will suffer even more.

I wonder how many people know about the Mormon mandate to take over the United States Government?  It is the only religion with that express purpose.  Other religions try to inject their beliefs into legislation, and would like to make America a theocracy on principle, but Mormon leaders indoctrinate their followers to believe that Mormons will rule America.  I don’t care what people personally believe, but when they try to legislate their fanaticism, that’s when it gets ugly.

Are people paying attention to what’s been happening?  Birth control, abortion rights, equal pay for equal work – all on the line!  Stopping that crazy train is of utmost importance, and that requires participation in our democracy by voting, being politically educated, and actively supporting candidates who will fight to retain the rights that were already fought and died over.  We’re not going back to those dark times, not if I can help it.

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Fair Days

Our fall harvest festival, The Franklin County Agricultural Fair, is here again.  I had wanted to enter some photography in their annual contest this year, but I always miss the deadline.  I also think there’s an entry fee, but I’m sure it’s not that much.

A dear friend gave me entrance tickets, and I’ll bring a sandwich, and my water canteen with me.  I don’t need to spend money on any attractions or food.  Just seeing so many people I know, and all the fair exhibits, is interesting enough for an afternoon.  It’s only a mile away from where I live, so I can even walk there.  Having no money doesn’t equal having no fun!

I look forward to seeing all the cows, sheep, goats, chicks, and ducks, and geese… and the surrey with the fringe on top!  Oh, sorry, I was in Oklahoma for a minute.  Maybe I’ll even find my very own Curly McLain there!  I played Ado Annie Carnes in The Country Players‘ 2008 production, and she is a far more interesting character than Laurey Williams is, even though Laurey is one of the main characters.  Ado Annie is the comic relief minor character, and it was so much fun to play that role.  As long as I don’t meet a Jud Fry at the fair, it’ll be a good day.  (I just realized I starting reading the words as I typed them in a mid-western accent.)

Maybe I’ll go around the fair using my Oklahoma accent and then switch to the English Country dialect I used for the Mutton & Mead Medieval Festival!  Well, the skies aren’t looking too friendly just now, so I better git while the gittin’s good!  Cheers!

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Weekly Photo Challenge: Near and Far

I took these pictures last August, a day or so after Hurricane Irene swept through our area with her winds and flooding rains.  The ribbon of water that you can see is the mostly receded Deerfield River.  While the picture is bucolic, the damage that was left behind was staggering.  Sometimes a far view misses critical facts you’d see from a closer perspective.

The sun was starting to set, and this is clearly a westward image.  The other photographs were taken looking to the south minutes before taking this shot.

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Stressed

I’ve made some changes that will help my financial situation, even if only moderately.  John Steinbeck wrote in America and Americans: “I guess the trouble was that we didn’t have any self-admitted proletarians.  Everyone was a temporarily embarrassed capitalist.”  Well, who wants to be the proletariat?  I’d rather have the problems of the wealthy than the problems of the impoverished.  The chances of that happening, while not impossible, get slimmer with each passing year.  Mostly, I’d like to be comfortable, and not have to choose paying utilities vs. eating.

Richard Branson, the entrepreneur extraordinaire was asked at what financial level he felt successful, and his alleged reply was: ‘fifty million’.  I’d feel successful if I still had fifty dollars in my account at the end of a month!  Well, maybe not successful, but certainly less stressed out.

I can also use my local food bank once a month – as long as there’s food – and if worse keeps going to worst, many of my bills will be moot because I’ll be homeless (even though friends have offered their couch if it comes to that)!  I have the library I can connect to the internet with, and I can store stuff with various friends.  At least it’s just me now.  I know my poverty embarrasses my son, but I’m doing the best I can, for me.  And it’s not like I’m not doing anything!  I am working – but it’s a few jobs that are still only part-time, and not enough to afford much more than basics, and I’m also trying to build a life that I want to be in.  My son would like me to stay alive for as long as that’s possible, and that’s my commitment to him, whether or not I want to.

I have to remember that I was a success for a long chunk of time.  I raised a son, who is a good human being.  He had way more than I ever had, and that’s how it should be.  He’s in college, and while I can’t help him financially, he’s getting scholarships, and taking out loans, and at least he’s earning a degree which I hope will help him pay back all his loans quickly.

In the meantime, I have my band, and the rest of the world goes away when I sing – which is one of those gifts I wouldn’t trade for more money but no solace.

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Plainly Rainy

The rain came down, softly at first.  A gentle drizzle, my face thinly misted as I walked out to collect the recycle bins from the curb.  The rain began in earnest as I headed back toward my porch, quickening my steps ahead of the downpour.

A dense fog bank hangs low over the hills, making their height appear uniform, and looking more like a greenery stockade wall surrounding my town than rolling westward hills.  Summer has been retreating steadily, although the weather remains warm to hot most days.

I hated putting on jeans instead of shorts today, and the sneakers I squeezed my feet into are an affront to my normally flip-flop shod feet.  I could still wear my flip-flops or sandals, but they spray the water from the sidewalk up onto the back of my pants with each footfall.  No, thanks!

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Weekly Photo Challenge: Movement

I decided to add a Photo Challenge.  This may have been a prior challenge, I’m not positive, but if so, I missed it!

I was on the train home from Penn Station in Manhattan two days ago, and think this image captures movement pretty well:

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