Writing 101, Day 12, Too Shy

Too Shy, that was my nickname for a while in fourth grade, only the bullies ran it together – Toozhyyyy – so it sounded like my parents named me from a science fiction or fantasy book, or that I was from some exotic locale, which was how I liked to think of it.

I went to a new school a few weeks after fourth grade had already started, and made friends with Annabelle at recess my first day.  She wanted me to join in a game of Red Rover, but I said I didn’t want to because I didn’t know anyone, and I wasn’t very good at it, and she declared my problem was being too shy, which Eddy Frost and Kyle Jacobson heard, and started calling me Toozhyyyy, looking at me with their stupid, sour, faces, as if they had made up the best insult ever. I guess, maybe they had, because that’s what everyone called me when the teachers weren’t making them use my name, which is Susan.

Most of the time I pretended it didn’t bother me, but Annabelle suggested I bow the next time they called me it, and after that I became Queen Toozhyyyy, and one day I couldn’t take it anymore so I started calling Eddy, ‘Betty’, and Kyle, ‘Kyle-Pig-Pile’, and Annabelle laughed like it was the best joke she ever heard, and she called them that too, but it didn’t catch on.

Eddy told me he was going to beat me up after school if I kept calling him Eddy-Betty, and I told him I’d stop when he and Kyle-Pig-Pile stopped, and I hoped he knew how to fight good because my older brothers taught me how to fight, and I’d sure hate to see the bloody nose he was going to have.  I said it with my meanest look, staring right into his eyeballs as if I could see right into his bloody brains.

Eddy and Kyle left me alone after that, and I’ve been Susan ever since.

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16 thoughts on “Writing 101, Day 12, Too Shy”

  1. Good for you. My daughter is doing a thesis on bullying and how it often ends badly for the victim. It’s nice to hear you stood strong, gave them a taste of their own miserable medicine, and, by all accounts, won!

    1. Thank you so much for reading & responding! It’s tricky navigating bully territory, and sometimes you get lucky because they certainly could have doubled-down!

      1. You are most welcome. And yes, it certainly is tricky. Sometimes, unfortunately it’s deadly. Awareness and helping the victim not feel alone are essential. Glad you shared your experience.

      2. Yes, suicide because of bullying shows the torment and horror of those taunted. It doesn’t stop after adolescence either, and I’m glad bullying is recognized as a hate crime.

      3. The psychology, on both sides of the coin, are intricate and complicated. Everyone involved is suffering. When I was a kid divorce was in the closet, people felt shamed. Now it’s in the open. Bully awareness is hugely on the rise now.

      4. I didn’t mean to make it sound like I think it’s uncomplicated, if I did, just that I know the seriousness, and terrible consequences throughout life. I know that bullies don’t act out of a vacuum, and I’m glad there is more awareness and steps to deal with it rather than minimize it.

      1. I appreciate your thoughts, and the insults worked, even though they weren’t very thought out! I’m glad you enjoyed reading it! Cheers! 🙂

    1. I’m so glad you read & commented on this post – thank you! I think Queen Toozhyyy isn’t so bad either – under better circumstances. 🙂 Cheers!

    1. I so appreciate you reading and commenting on my post! Kids can be total jerks, for sure! You never know if sticking up for yourself is going to work, but it’s great when it does! 🙂

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