It’s amazing how fast my inner reality can change from wonderful to dreadful. I actually don’t understand the mechanism, or process, of my mind. Regardless of the how or why, I worry that one day I will remove any barrier between me leaving, or sticking around on this pointlessly spinning rock.
I know that we bring any meaning to this world, or our lives, and that’s a problem when I can’t see anything worth enduring this life for. I see people who cannot help but hurt others, and those who actually delight in it. I live in a dishonorable society growing more hedonistic all the time. All we need do to finish the treatment is to erect a huge bull in our nation’s capitol, and start worshiping Baʿal again. The love of money has taken center stage in our society, and pushed those who seek equity to the fringes, as though they are contemptible, and not the other way around. We’re once again a nation who honors the Shylocks and Scrooges among us, and our legislators make more laws to protect the few from the many, while undoing, or trying to undo, laws that serve the least among us. Women are being treated as commodities more openly again as Machiavellian legislation is introduced that seeks to strip all rights to our own bodies, with several states either already legislating, or seeking to grant a fertilized egg ‘person-hood’, as well as making birth control a murder weapon!
I am a sovereign being! I don’t believe in your God, or your ideas about what I can and can’t do with my body. I can be raped, and if I live in Alabama, or Nebraska, or several other states, I’m forced to bear that child?! Hey, pro-lifers: Don’t like abortion? – then don’t have one! You are trying to play God with my decisions. You want me to have free will as long as I use that will the way you, you limited, fallible, troglodytes, try to force me to! Step off!
There are far more of us who truly seek personal freedom than there are those with massive egos who think they have the right to tell everyone else how to live. Those are the people who rape, molest, and torture women and children, and who are so deeply perverted that they try to control others so stringently because they cannot control themselves. Here’s a little tip: get a therapist, and leave the rest of us alone.
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